To me, life is like a balancing act.

Many have told me their impressions of me. How calm and strong they think of me..
To be honest, it's just my way of keeping it all in.

I don't think anyone realises how hard it is for me to keep my anger in.

Sometimes, I want to hurt people.
Any one.. Because I can.

But I don't, and that's me reining myself in.
If I truly let myself go, I would be in jail now.

But I understand the concept of consequences.
It's one of the things that has been pounded hard into me from when I was a child.

With every action, comes a consequence.

I don't know if other humans feel the same way.
I don't know if they have the same difficulty in trying to control the impulse that runs through my veins.

And I always think to myself..
That I should breathe, that I should calm down.

Don't black out.

It happened to me once.
....I have to be very conscious not to let myself slip so far ever again.

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Life is like a balancing act...

I need to get my act together.